Soon I will be 46. I honestly can’t remember when sexual thoughts weren’t part of my life. I remember certain acts as early as 2nd grade, that today would be reported as major issues.
No, none of them involved family and 2/3’s of them were initiated by me to get the attention of boys.
By the age of 12, I was attempting to get the attention of Men, grown men.
And I recently realized I crave the attention of Men. But really just need that 1 man that understands me to the core. A man that isn’t ashamed of me and my desires.
Now I wonder if I have chosen wisely.
Fact is I believe in polyamory but I feel I will have to make a choice as one may never accept my need for 2 to have balance.